de' womaniser

Congratulation, Musthafa!

2009-07-12T15:47:00.004+05:00

At last the awaiting results came in. And guess what, the results were in MDP's favour and their candidate won yesterday's election for a re-vote on Thimarafushi ballot boxes.

It's time to say bye-bye to Maumoon and his relatives and the country shall move on. People had said a big 'no' to another 5 years and now they have said a 'no' once again to his puppet son Ghassan Maumoon, whose national identity card number happens to be A000004 (one of the best evidence that Maumoon used the government resources illegaly and unduly).

Yet there is another problem and a questionable thought! Would Maumoon accept his defeat NOW? Will he force Ghassan to file a suite before the high court, claiming Thimarafushi islanders were not working for the best interest of him, and asking for a re-election?

What a joke! Hey Ghassan, Let me tell you something. Do not dare to make such a move. Or else it is your character at stake. Your dear father 'fulhu' got the chance to get out of politics and to work for the best interest of the country! But he blew it. Do not go on in his path. Do not sweat on it. You will be rejected, yet again. That is my humble suggestion to you.

DRP-PA coalition MPs need to work in full gear to protect their beloved former president being investigated, prosecuted and convicted. Or else they might be sorry later on. And yeah, Omar is not a solution. He never was, but he himself is a problem.

Congratulation, Musthafa! And thanks to Thimarafushi 'Rayyithun'

Another Fucking Decision by Islamic Ministry

2009-07-07T10:45:00.006+05:00

I was surprised to know that Air Tel dish are getting banned without prior notice being given to the users, and I have come across different versions of comments from various people on this.

I, too, is of the view that it should not be banned. This Islamic ministry has decided upon such an issue without even considering public interest, which is the main thing they preach about except for their strict ideologies. But where is this so called public interest in this case?

I am sure no Maldivian would want to pay MRF 300 or MRF 500 for some 30 or 40 channels! and by God, they have been paying it for as long as they remember. Ok, I get it, this decision was pursued just because medianet and bnet or mesco would be wound up if Air Tel dish are taking shape like this, because they totally depend on this. But have not they been earning that wholesome income for this long? well, it seems they are not working for the public and to serve the public as they claim. if not why do not they atleast cut the price or compromise things a little bit? ( i thought majority counts, but here i see a different image )

Another lousy issue the Islamic ministry has come up with is taking Religion as a tool. The earlier government used it as a political tool messing it here and there and now the current islamic ministry is using it as a financial tool. WTF!
They say there is no mechanism to block that particular God TV. But I have known that it can be blocked and it's just an excuse.

When will we be free?????? we can change the government and the president, yet i see we are restrained from being free.

Surely, if there is ever a rally or assembly regarding this issue, i would chose to be on their side. :D
lets wait and see the next decision they make! i can guarantee you it will be far worse than this.

A Sickening Sight!

2009-06-23T13:47:00.003+05:00

why is every Maldivian so into death penalty?
how come they think of it as the ultimate solution?
it seems like they are romantically in love with that!

they say it will solve everything.
they say it is the ideal solution for paedophiles, molesters and even to criminals.
but is that it?

i don't think so. what i say is death penalty is not for Maldives and Maldivians.
it just wont suit us.
in fact, it will create more problems and bring our economy down.
and those sickening death penalty talk coming from MP's is much worse.

i mean they are the ones to think about such issues directly affecting our country and they are the one who are supposed to see the big picture out there and frame our laws according to the vast effects which might come with the package when and if we start to give death penalties.

we are a small country! we have no resources of our own except our beaches which is not flexible and not permanent..
we totally depend on other countries..
we are the ones who are under a global threat..
yet we are the one talking about legalising death penalty and implementing those?
well, well, i salute their gut.
but, please do not lead our country to another destruction where all the countries would cut down all funds and we will be 'shut-down'

yeah! we are 100 or so percent Moslem and there it is Halal to give death penalty!
but should not we observe the current situation?

Poor People of Kanditheemu

2009-06-20T14:40:00.006+05:00

can anyone think of an island where they get no tv signal?
i can.
believe it or not, while our free times are occupied with famous tv programmes
and popular shows, there is one island where they do not get to watch any such thing!!!

for people of Sh. Kanditheemu, tv signal has now become a past thing.
almost all the people have accepted the dull truth and have accustomed
themselves to their 'no-more-tv-channels' routine.
but i find it hard to imagine and difficult to believe that one island has been deprived
of tv signal for this long.

they have been going through this ever since that dreary day when Dhiraagu antenna tower in that island was struck by lightning.

[here is the link which will relate to the incident]

who is going to be responsible for this?
well, easy to say and regard it as a natural cause of tragedy.
what the hell? is that natural cause going to come and bring that signal back again?
where are the KatheebS?
where is the Councilor?
where is the recently appinted MP with absolute majority?

oh yeah! they are delaying the signal deliberately
because they have no budget?
oh yeah! they are delaying the project because they got lot of works to do
oh yeah! they are avoiding it to avoid re-cabling.
worst of all, they could be avoiding it in the name of Islam, for cable tv has a bad influence over teenagers and it shows 18+ materials which are considered vulgar and 'ziney ah magu fahivaa kanthah thah!

ok, ok. lets end this note and blame the innocent people living in that island since no one else gives a damn.

WTF! Here Goes Another One!

2009-06-19T20:10:00.005+05:00

hey, wait a sec.
i have seen this 'partey' lady from somewhere else!
not long ago.
in fact, just the day before this news came out, she was roaming freely around 'Maaveyo Magu'.
her Holy drunken state put a festive mood on the by-standers and the traffics.
'a partey deal!', some wishpered as she dragged herself through.
never mind that. that was it and it is normal nowadays.

i wonder how many such 'NOORUZAADHAs' would be out there
torturing and beating their own babies?
and how many such 'ZAADHAs' would be out there letting others 'mess' with their own infants?
are they human or their rotten acts humane? believe me, neither of it is.
yet it is the state we are in today.
unfortunately we seem to lack a proper remedy to this bunch of scums
who should be alienated and rather killed.

lets face it, we all condemn such acts and express our hatred towards such.
but none of us is doing enough to get rid of them.
we are not uniting our thoughts and our feelings on this.
we are not working together to eliminate these kind of heinous crimes.
(i know, the comment section on such article does attract bulk of comments.)

has not the time to bond together come yet?
lets form unions, associations or whatever it takes to fight these evils.
but please, words are not enough and no more time to form another lengthy plan.
what we need is action!!!!

Mike is Back!

2009-06-18T10:54:00.005+05:00

well, it's been ages i guess.
never mind that, the best part is that i am back on blogging.
so here i go with some random 'handi' clicks. :d

as for me... am awaiting for my semester results,
which will be disclosed on the next Sunday.
wish me luck and i have my expectations.:D

btwn, am gonna do my theory test for the driving license.
so, gotta rush.
and am glad that i am back now.

hope there wont be any complaints:D
and if there is, well, i am sorry.

I Beg You!

2009-05-10T15:15:00.003+05:00

mom,

why is everything has to be like this?
why do you always believe what others has to say about us?
why do you think of us like that?

please do not give up on us this soon!
you have fought it for this long..
why cannot you hang to your little ones another couple years?
why cannot you at least trust us?
why cannot you take our word for something?

what makes you think we do not love you?
what gives you the idea that we want you out?
which of our acts imply that we want you no more?
does any of our conduct towards you shows we are burdened by your presence?

please mom, i beg you.
please understand us.
please judge us only by your reasons.
please do not do things which would weaken our strength.
please bond us in your ultimate love.

Aadheys!

2009-05-01T18:53:00.004+05:00

lobivaa hawwathaa ge ahmadhu ah,
vedhun salaam finifen maluge fiyathakuge eheega barutheela kraaa haalu roe heyrifai govaa nagameve.

lobivaa eve.
mioh kada kada dhuniye midhanee badhalu vamun neve.
janavaru thah nethive meehun thah neggaaanee vamun neve.
eoh varugadha vegen ulhunu bush ge verikan nimi, enme varugadha golhaa verikan ves hafusvee eve.
hama ekani dhemiothee dhemeehun ge xamaanvee niumathun furigen vaa, adhi kiehtha, ibrathun liyevigen vaa mi gulhumeve.

hingaasheve.
dhemeehun dhuvahak vaki nuvane fadha gulhumakun bandhevemaa annasheve.
avas kraasheve. keh theri kan kolhun lanee eve.
adeh naahamu heyyeve, 'time and tide wait for no men' eve.
lobeege aarun fenboan annasheve. mutheethah dheme fadha koarakun kovareh bolan annasheve.
nuvithaakah dhemeehun ge loluge koe fadhain gengulhene meyva eh hodhamaa annasheve.

inthixaru kraa haalu,
(soi)
leyboa hafeeza (adambe goathi)

Thaareekhuge Therein 17/04/2009

2009-05-01T17:57:00.005+05:00

enme thiree foto ga maa kandah nukume mas baanaigen an naneee eve.
medhu ga huri foto ga hulhumale alifaan roakurun manaa sarahadhdhuga mas fihanee eve.
fahu foto ga fihefai oi ekkala bodu mas keumah thayyaru vefa othee eve.

The Best Campaign Photo- Ghassan Maumoon

2009-04-27T10:29:00.004+05:00

'Alhugandu ge bappaa fulhakee dhivehi raajjeyge kureege raeesul jumhooriyya al-usthaaz Maumoon Abdul Qayyoom'

>>>>London in nappy gannanee ves??? cud have used Lovely Baby Nappy!!<<<<
nukurevene... Dammit.. It's the Former President's Son dho..
>>>>Spect hadhdhan ves ehaavaru??? why can't they use a theemuge fund ainu??<<<<
nukurevene... Dammit.. It's the Former President's Son dho..

none is going to confess and is confusing and IT's the ultimate CONFUSION

image origin: http://www.flickr.com/photos/hilath/3461632808/

Just Trust Me!

2009-04-10T15:37:00.005+05:00

trust me, mom. i will make you proud.
do not worry about the many times i spend out.
it's for good and it is to color your dreams.
just believe in me, and have faith in me on this.

i may go hungry for hours, but it will only strengthen my determination.
four more years and i will be done.
in about 1460 days i will be there for you
to tend to your needs
to care for you
and to look after you

i wont fail like my brothers and sisters
this is a promise to which i will hold to,
till the very end.

Freedom of Religion

2009-03-28T18:27:00.005+05:00

it seems that the current Constitution of the Maldives is acknowledged by many States as exemplary and ideal.
it also seems that almost all the fundamental rights with regard to Universal Declaration of Human Rights are being provided by the current Constitution, except few things intentionally ignored.

my question is why then there is no mention of freedom of religion in this particular constitution or rather why is it being abolished?
i know you would come up with something like its a 100 percent Moslem country and so and so.

let me make it clear that i too am aware of it and the provisions regarding Islam prescribed in the Constitution.
but i still find it hard to gulp down the idea of depriving the right to choose someone's religion freely.
as far as Islam is concerned, it does not compel anyone to embrace it.
and it was tolerated by the Prophet.. then who are these ignorant intolerable people messing here and there in the name of religion???
'lakum dheenakun valiya dheen'

i personally do not mind co-existing with other residents practicing their religion and their culture.
after all, we are all humans and we are not meant to be in a solitary confinement in some CAVES located in ARABIA.

NB. for some dumb beardies who might come up and want to behead me because of this post, all i can offer them is,
'SORRY, DUDE.. BUT I FIND IT UNDEMOCRATIC'

Thank God, Someone is There!

2009-03-23T23:23:00.004+05:00

is it right for me to assume that some MP's are doing things worth taking note of?
i really was glad when i read this article in haveeru today.
thank you, ibra, for bringing this before parliament in the form of a bill.

as we all know, this should have been done years ago.
anyways, lets hope this bill gets passed.
the sooner, the better.

lets hope our children get their rights guaranteed as in our constitution.
lets round up all the pedophiles who are roaming freely, and 'sirs' who conceal behind political lines and influential positions
lets make sure our children do not get victimized!

Lost

2009-03-21T10:07:00.002+05:00

can these people ever be found?

Fake Lurve

2009-03-16T17:11:00.002+05:00

Warning! A Mighty Disaster is Expected!

2009-03-15T02:27:00.007+05:00

i act weird these days.
seems like am the only college student who roam around there
without heading home throughout the day.
normally i would avoid home at any cost
i would chose to be away from there till every one is soundly asleep.

there are my reasons.
i am frightened.
i am dreading the coming disaster.
i think i can feel the magnitude of it.
i feel like me and my family or rather what is left of it might not survive.
i do not want to let go of anyone.
dammit, the last thing i would want is multitude of problems at this stage of my life.

i think i have temper problems.
but then anyone who lives a life like mine is deemed to be.
damn, this is not how i want it.
is not there going to be a true ending?
everything is supposed to be ending happily-ever-after
but that is far from reality.

too much to lose.
everything is at stake.
my life is in jeopardy.
we are going to be ruined.
life might not be normal anymore.
aarghhhhh
seriously, family crap stinks.

i want to go away.
i wish i can fly away.
i long for everything to be normal back again.

Blank

2009-03-14T00:47:00.002+05:00

right now i am blank to my stomach

my head aches.
my belly flips.

do not know why it is so.
life was all normal.. and i was all happy..
till now..

what made the itch?
what changed my mood?
will never find out..

Random Clicks @ India

2009-03-12T23:09:00.002+05:00

A Legal Question

2009-03-10T23:46:00.004+05:00

here is a legal question for you.
i was having my Const. lecture today
we were discussing about the provisions of article 9 of Maldives New Constitution
and somehow i came up with this question.

WHAT IF SOMEONE RENOUNCES ISLAM?
WILL HE BE DENIED CITIZENSHIP?
WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO HIM?
WHAT ARE HIS LEGAL RIGHTS?

for your reference article 9 (a) prescribes 3 circumstances when a person
can be a citizen of Maldives.

Article 9(a)(1)
'citizens of the Maldives at the commencement of this constitution.'

Article 9(a)(2)
'children born to a citizen of the Maldives.'

Article 9(a)(3)
'foreigners who, in accordance with the law, become citizens of the Maldives.'

while forming your argument you might consider this one.
'the same article provision (b) states that no citizen of the Maldives
maybe deprived of citizenship.'

and everything gets mixed up with the article 9(d) which says,
'despite the provision of article 9(a, a non-Muslim may not become a citizen of the Maldives'

now what is your argument?

My Times At CHSE

2009-03-07T00:54:00.005+05:00

'i HATED CHSE, i really did'
kurkoh foni koh bunanama i will have no better phrase to describe it.

first, i did not want to join there in the first place.
it was my parents who wanted me there and ruined my long-dreamt goal.
because of that i have had to choose completely new field of studies

second, i HATE Amira. i even do today.
i detest her long dull speeches reminding of us being the cream of this pie or whatever.
i shudder at the way how she dresses.
more like she is from some other planet.
i cannot stand the way how she abetted that foreign teacher to leave Maldives after molesting this friend of mine.
i have some personal grounds with her because she disallowed me to go to IBS to do this networking course.
i wanted to spit on her for threatening to bring my parents just because i would not have her way and argue about it.
simply i cannot stand her.

third, i met this girl in the same class as mine.
i loved her.
she loved me. or she used to tell so.
in the end, this beard-father of her could not stand to see us being together.
you know why? because i did not grow my beard.:)
dammit.

fourth, i lost my interest in studies then and there.

sixth, i was continuously sick with this inevitable problems of mine.

a dull place it was for the study part.
but the fun part is unlimited.
teachers stink there.. except for this Dhivehi miss i loved..
too bad she was in a relationship:P keke

Pooosss Assignment!

2009-03-04T21:11:00.007+05:00

um.. i feel shy to tell this.
hate to beat around the bush, though
there goes a saying 'nuroa dhari akah kireh nulibene'
so i might as well start weeping! lolx
the sooner the better..

the thing is i am all loaded up with assignments
and my this boring lecturer has burdened me with
the most dull topics a person can ever come across to write a composition.
a composition of 500 or so words.
'sobs'

it is not the word limit or anything.
i just hate the topics he chose.
it is like these.

1. the role of woman in development of a country
2. the benefits of modern technology
3. the reasons and effects of over-crowding in male'

all are so predictable topics and it needs interests to write which i unfortunately lack
you see this is where i need help.
i need ideas on this. :)
far better, maybe someone can send me a written composition on one of the topics.
inaam dho:).. will coffee do??:)

Lost!

2009-03-04T00:53:00.006+05:00

lost into the wilderness...

here i am.

disappointed...
oppression leads to depression...
glittered with despair and regret.

here i am.

caught between the devil and the deep blue sea
unable to get out.
unknown to it.

here i am

totally foreign to the new situation.
an innocent and an unwilling participant.
scribbling meaningless words.
in a random manner

What Should I Update With?

2009-03-02T12:42:00.003+05:00

what should i update with??
this question has been bugging me over and over..

should i update with the on-going legal controversy where a parliament which has no legal authority gathers to chit-chat about latest affairs?
no.. i don't think so.. there are too many people wasting their energy on that.

should i continue to despair people with the shits going on in FSL?
nope, that would be too dull to listen to.
you would be bored by the time you go through the garbage out there.

should i go about family matters which drive me crazy by the end of the day?
should i keep you informed on the ways how i am being emotionally tortured?
nope. i have no right to 'rock' your world with my shits.
like this somebody who reminded me, 'i have never been through those and i don't intend to listen to those'

fine by me.

i can live my own life.

damn well i will live it.

oh.. almost forgot.
should i talk about these mullahs who try to drill their ways into our little innocent minds?
why can't they live and let others live?
they think they are so holy and pious.
damn, you know what i think?
i think we are more holier and pious than them.
at least we can tolerate and we know how to co-exist with others.

PS. don't come up sending me death threats in the name of Islam.
i have nothing against Islam.
note that i am only against those hypos. who talk in the name of Islam and spread hatred among the real Moslems.
i am against those beardies who live double lives.
i am against those 'bodu-burugaS' who regard it as a cloak to conceal their dark deeds.

What A Shame!

2009-02-27T00:59:00.004+05:00

why do some people who comment and talk in the name of God
does not credit it on their own name???
what are they fearing of?
do they not believe in their own religion?
does it shame them to talk openly and diplomatically?
islam asks them to talk anonymously?

i m sure it wont.

they are just cowards who comment in the name of the god,
just because they got nothing else to do with their own life...
should i advice them to get a life???
but will it be to any avail??
nope.. their head is just closed?
'closed for prayer time', their sign says.
but that is the time they take off to attack others who just wont live how they want it to be.
why cant they tolerate???

it is these people who spread hatred towards Islam in the name of Moslem.
what a shame..

ps. this article is dedicated to the 'dhefukkeheri' allahakubaru
who is having a go at ruining my cbox..

A Cock and Bull Story

2009-02-27T00:36:00.003+05:00

how many of us believe in Maldives national day
and the related stories about this very day???

i believe there are so many absurdities regarding them.
there are so many questions which need to be clarified.
too many mysteries to be solved.

for instance the thakurufaan is said to go through one of the islands !!!
how can it be?
they use wind to propel them.
can wind have that much of a fall on that day? or is it a night?
a miracle some say. a miracle which i do not consider

is he that holy to be shown some miracles
is he that pious?
if so, what about the incident where he took a 'hiley-anheneh' over his shoulder
to the sea side where there is no other soul??
damn..

so i will believe in this day and on the 'thakurufaanS' only when all the stories
regarding them is verified and clarified.
my conscience does not allow me to accept what some other one feed me
without questioning it.

The Worst Barney I Ever Saw

2009-02-26T16:47:00.003+05:00

Barney is a dinosaur from our imagination
And when he's tall
he's what we call a dinosaur sensation

Barney's friends are big and small
they come from lots of places
after school they meet to play
and sing with happy faces

Barney shows us lots of things
Like how to play pretend
ABC's, and 123's
And how to be a friend

Barney comes to play with us
Whenever we may need him
Barney can be your friend too
If you just make-believe him!
.........................................................................................
have you seen this barney??
if not you should thank god or whatever people thank to these days:D

you should not attend any birthday party where this barney goes.
if you do you would hate the barney character completely.
and that's the last i would want...

An Ideal World

2009-02-26T01:25:00.002+05:00

can this be considered an ideal world?
can you live happily ever after in these little cottages?

PIC 01
i will use this little cottage to sleep and to use as a study room.
PIC 02
obviously in such a state i wont be having a proper drainage system, so i might start practicing the ancient drainage methods with some modifications in the free space available.
um. almost forget. i can put some covering over that old 'bokkura' after some partitioning
and rent them.
advance shall be 30,000.00 (lolx)
PIC 03
this will be my auditorium and cinema
the white sand mountain is to cover up my 'wastes'.
everytime i 'valhu-jahafa' i can cover it up. lolx

Exactly Four Minutes!

2009-02-26T00:36:00.003+05:00

i was having my lunch in a cafe',
where i settled to my daily items which happened to be '4 roshi, musanma riha
and lhakoh bisgandu'
and there came these two men who seemed very confident and all.

i was not surprised when they ordered for a coffee.
but which surprised me was the time which took them to empty their cups.

EXACTLY FOUR MINUTES and they were done.

yeah, i know. that's none of my business.
but i believe i have the right to wonder of and be surprised about what others do and say.
none can take that right away from me.
even if it be some people who disapprove of me because i refuse to live their way.

can we regard it as a new technique to have coffee or regard the technique out-dated?

Mystery!

2009-02-22T23:20:00.003+05:00

what lies beneath the beard of some people?

have u ever thought of it?
just now one of my friend narrated this story which made her
to 'lose faith in them' as she puts it.

a long time ago she was doing this course
and went to this cyber cafe' to get this material.
and there was this 'thubulhi-laafa-faikuri-olhafa-huri-meeha' looking so pious and religious.
'naseebakun' for her, his logging hour was over soon
and she got the 'naseebu' of occupying the same pc which he just then used.

guess what she found? damn!!!
can that be expected of 'them'..
for her it never occurred that such a fine person could be doing such an act.

HE HAPPENED TO BE SURFING THE INTERNET FOR PORNS!!!!!
AND THERE WERE MORE THAN 10 PORN SITES OPEN IN DIFFERENT WINDOWS TO PROVE WHAT HE WAS DOING.
WTF...
ARE THEY ALLOWED TO DO THAT, SHE WONDERED!
POOR 'SHE' COULD NOT UTTER A WORD BUT REMAINED SHOCKED WASTING 5 OR SO MINUTES OF HER LIFE, TRYING TO CLOSE THOSE SHITTY MATERIALS.

if any one wants to behead me for writing this story, all i have to say is,
i cannot help myself writing this narration.
thank you for taking time to hate me.

No Big Deal

2009-02-21T12:51:00.005+05:00

if ever you need a big laugh, you should watch these doha debates on bbc.

i was watching this thing today and the motion was
'this house believes that after gaza, arab unity is dead and buried'
i cannot think of a reason why they shud come up with such a 'no-more' topic in the first place.

everyone knows to what extent arab unity lies
and there really is no need to create a fuss about it.
i mean why cannot they rest the matter.
as one of the participant said it all lies in sitting back and discussing/chatting.
that's it. they wont go any further than that.

one of the panelist who talked for the motion implied all the people are united
and the only problem lies with the leaders.
i was laughing when the moderator asked if he meant that their leaders are not people:)
lolx
the dull and reluctant reply was 'they are people with different agendas'
i cannot stop wondering what those agendas might be..

it was voted for the motion and concluded that arab unity is dead and buried.
a good conclusion, isn't it?

What Do You Propose To Do With This Criminal?

2009-02-20T14:51:00.005+05:00

i was really devastated to come across this article on HaveeruOnline yesterday.

urghhhhhhh......

like Hilath I too blame the abundance of peodophiles on the last regime.
it is that dictatorship that made our country to be engulfed by these paedophiles.
and the worst part is none of the laws regarding these provide any remedy.
of course, you might say they are banished?
but for what? is it to any use?
this only will and is making their chain of innocent victims grow.
this is proved even in the linked article there.

damn, 35 children... and that's one man.
what if there are 10 more men abusing our children..
only god knows whether our own children will survive of it or not.

so society.. 'athu gulhuvaalanveekeee' not only for drugs or change.
WE HAVE TO BE LINKED TO GET RID OF THESE PAEDOPHILES WHO ARE ABUSING AND DESTROYING OUR FUTURE.

btwn wat do you propose to do with the people like Fazeel above?
i mite be irrational in saying this.
but, I WANT HIM AND TYPES OF HIM DEAD

No Reason To Panic

2009-02-18T22:47:00.004+05:00

do you panic when you go to job interviews?
if you do then it is time to avoid it.
believe me there is no need of it.
you can shun from it and it wont cost you anything

when you are being interviewed make it a policy to think,
'we are just two important people
sitting down to discuss something of mutual interest and benefit.
i am equally important as him or her.
we both are human and are of equal rank'

DO NOT WALK IN HALF-SCARED
this will make the interviewer think less of you
do not try to give the answers they need and
do not sacrifice your beliefs over a mere answer.
depend it on what you believe and what you want.
and most of all, DO NOT SETTLE FOR LESS.

My Dream Resolved

2009-02-18T21:52:00.003+05:00

everybody think of what they want to become in the long run.

do you know what i want to become?
I WANT TO BECOME A PROFESSOR OF HAPPINESS

if i can be that i will have all the things i want in my life:)
then i will have no complains whatsoever.
my life will be balanced
there will be no time for any regrets.
there wont be any sorrow.

simply i will be happy throughout the rest of my life.

'Anhenun Khithaanu Kurun'

2009-02-16T00:37:00.005+05:00

this is somethin i have been wondering about recently.
i even asked around if any girls had it done.
the ultimate reply was a big NO.
oh yeah, i met a girl who said that her sister was done.
so lets c abt the topic.

some states it as 'cutting off the clitoris and sewing a vaginal opening shut'
some says it minimizes their sexual desires and helps them control them.
some says they just push a needle like thing to their private part to make them bleed.
do you have any other theory?

but i cant think of a reason why we should do this.
i mean if they are cutting or making it bleed just because it will minimize the lust,
then why cant we live with it?
some cases lust ge bai otheema much more advantageous nu:)

Coffee Man

2009-02-13T23:54:00.002+05:00

i just came across this coffee man on some FB group and thought of publishing it.

it look cute there..
whoever made this is much better than the creator of Pinocchio
i think this coffee man could be a good cartoon character.
don't u think so?

Happy Valentines' Day

2009-02-13T23:30:00.004+05:00

um, nothing of significance came to my mind
untill edm told me abt the coming valentines' day which is fortunately tomorrow.

as for maldivians it is;
the day to exchange gifts between valentines
the day to appreciate each other
the day to buy flowers
the day to go for long drives and walks
the day to ask and propose.
this simply is valentines day among us.
so wats the harm in celebratin it?

i mean we don't celebrate it because we believe in the story behind it.
wtf.... we dont even care abt that god-damn story.
to heck with that cock and bull story.
i surely wont buy it. never ever.
what matters for me is that we get the joy after celebrating..
we get bit of fun arranged.

i know some might disagree with me..
they might even say like, why does it have to be this particular 14th?
why cant we celebrate it some other day
and 'for me everyday is like a valentines day'
crap!!! if as they say, everyday happen to be a Vday,
then why do they dnt spend time together on each day,
why dont they do things together which will make their bond stronger?

PS. these pics were taken a long time back.. this will bring good memories to some:) and i m sorry if this pics make ur heart pump.. :P

I Fooled My Lecturer

2009-02-11T23:46:00.001+05:00

i really did fool my EFAP lecturer,

i pretended i was receiving a phone call in the middle of the lecture and went out.
the funny thing is i never got back to class but went on a fish trip,
organized by my former office mates.

as a whole the trip was fun and we had our dinner at BANDOS.
there was all sorts of things including BODU BERU.
it felt good to be with them after so long.
i still miss my old office.
i cannot kiss away the memories ever.

what else? um studies dho..
i hate the way our classes are arranged.
it is only for the convenience of lecturers.
our betterment is not concerned in allocating our classes.
but there is no tribunal to go to complain.

gnt.

Damn! Spare My Life

2009-02-09T21:30:00.003+05:00

i really felt like begging tonight.
in fact i did just that deep in my heart.

i was walking along Majeedhee Magu just now.
and then i came across this gang run by someone i know.
we talked about our life and he asked for a coffee.
i refused saying i can't cause i really was in a tight spot.
imagine all those gangsters hovering me and i being surrounded by those thugs.

damn, i wish this is a dream.
but this is the very truth to its core.
i had no other way except to give in to their demands.
their demand of a 'coffee-bovene-varah-laari',
which turned to be mrf 100.00

thank god i am not carrying my phone these days.
thank god i was not wearing my underwear tonight..:P
(god knows they might have asked for that even)

whatever it is, this is becoming a burden for me.
burden for ppl like me to walk along the road with peace.
we all are supposed to be respecting the other ones' interests.
in this case, even if i am their friend, what abt my interests?

is there any court which could serve justice for this very case?
certainly there is not.

Back to Studies

2009-02-08T17:51:00.003+05:00

i am back to studies again...

after the long three months of break...
a boring break which i really hated,
for every minute counts to reach my self-destined port.

back to those long lectures and bulky notes.
back to noisy environment of 'trying-to-be-macho-man'

i had my GPL II today and the teacher rocks.
he seems to be bit serious bt firm on his techniques.
he askd us to BE lawyers. act like lawyers. and dress like them.
crap... ekm salhi gotheh ige.. i dnt mind doin so..
i decided i wil like him..:P

and kada vaa thing is they are goin to sustain a formal dress-code o..
we mite be askd to wear tie and thro away our casual dresses..
i wil have to buy another wardrobe of 'official clothes'

and damn.. too many referin to do.. and it's for the next class which is on tomo.
bt i wil cope..
nothin wil stop me..
nothin really can.
i m determined.

Tail 'LUN'

2009-02-07T21:02:00.004+05:00

See that tail over there?

Nice huh?

I was wondering why youngsters are so fond of having a ‘tail’ like that these days.

I guess its part of the changing fashion.

Frankly, hama we have to say OBI.

I mean I will say so. For me it is and I only can wish.

‘Dear Fairy! Where are you.. Where are you..

Please, please grant me this one wish and provide me with a tail

when I woke up tomorrow morning. Please!’

Ok ok! For some it might not be so.

Like my mom and family.

For them having such a thing is like ‘going into a wrong territory’.

I guess it is ok.

Opinions and attitudes are bound to be different.

No complains whatsoever.

Except that I cannot be having that for the very reason.

And I am ‘mahuroom’ from TAIL ‘LUN’

……....sigh…………

The only possible way for me to have that would be over my relatives’ dead bodies.

Even then they would haunt me in my dreams.

<<<>>>thanks EDM for snapping EDY'S this pic<<<>>>

Think BIG

2009-02-04T17:33:00.006+05:00

First let me thank David J. Schwartz, Ph. D,
for writing long but chewable books like 'The Magic of Thinking Big'
It is a real soul-mate for people who stagger on and hold back due some influence,
be it an emotional like a break-up,
health issue like having going through diabetics
and even big but inevitable family issues.

During our blossoming childhood, we all were carefree
and really 'mind-free' from all those craps the world has to offer.
For instance ask a child what would he/she become.
The ultimate and instant answer would be some big time high profession
which we as elder people tend to be astonished of.
Not that we are disappointed of what our children dream.
But because we have been failures of doing the same or alike.
Because we used to have the same 'egos' when we were child.
Yet in the long run we failed.

No body dare to ask ourselves why we failed.
That is the think point I am trying to emphasize here.
Why did we fail.
Why cannot we pursue our long time dream.
Why cannot we become what we wanted to be.

The truth is always bitter, right?

Nevertheless, you would have to face it at one time.
At one time you would be buried in your own guilt.
Believe me ignorance is not a bliss.
You might as well face it now.

You failed because you FAILED to BELIEVE in yourself.
Think back and think hard.
Admit it, You held back.
You thought you cannot do it.
You thought you are too weak to do it.
You thought you lack the intelligence.
Dammit, you thought others are better.
and that is how and why you failed.

Now I know there is nothing that stands between me and my dream.
I becoming a great lawyer like Husnu Suood.
Like Mohamed Nasheed.
Like Dr. Munawwar or Dr. Hassan Saeed and alike.

According to him, they are not 'super-intelligent nor super-perspective
nor super-anything else except super-confident.'

I will quote him again,
'It is well to respect the leader.
Learn from him.
Observe him. Study him.
BUT DO NOT WORSHIP HIM'

Believe in yourself and you will have what you want.
That is the morale.

Sorry for the long post.

Twisted

2009-01-30T19:26:00.005+05:00

Dear varah bodah lobivaa mi alhage blogah..
Vedhumaai shukuraai dhen ves huri echchakun salam krameve.

I am always telling you how weird my family is.
There really is no time to get bored.
There is always a new series of tackling events going on.
Serious events full of tragedy.
I guess this will be a new twist to it.

Yesterday around 1pm, all our phones were busy discussing a matter which just cropped up.
It was regarding my cousin, Fitey.
He is studying at our stupid island.
Now he is in 10th grade, about to finish his o'level.

He and his dad never get along.
Don't ask me why.
That remains a mystery.
His dad scolds him every now and then and they hardly talk to each other.
His dad seems to have a rough way of advising him anytime he creates a mess.
Believe me, his dad's attitude towards him affects him mentally and this has a negative impact on his behavior.

Through out these evolving, he becomes involved with drug addicts and he is labeled as a bad boy.
He, himself is a gangster and that's how he got the elite name of 'FITEY'

I blame all his 'degrees' on his dad. I take it that his dad has to get all the credits of his bad behavior. Not that he does not has a responsibility role there.
He was never shown any care or love towards him by his family and especially his dad.
Most of the time he was not even considered while buying new clothes for occasions like eid.
He has to depend on what we give.

I personally give him all my new clothes and I do transfer him credits to his mobile when he asks for it.
Unlike his parents, I understand what kind of situation he is trapped in.
It's about time he choose some side.
I don't want him end up being a drug addict.
Even if I can't give money, I help him as much as I can.

Hm.. Back to today's twist dho.

He threw something on to roadside and that thing hit a pickup.
This created a scene and he got suspended for 5 days.
I guess that is far better a penalty than getting expelled.
And this time he was about to get expelled.

After this, his dad ordered him out of his house and disinherited him.
Worse, his mom was warned if she offers him anything in anyway she should expect to get a divorce.
She has 3 children to raise including one infant.
Out of desperation she called my sis currently in male'.
He was left to be hungry till then.
We could not do anything then and there.
We are miles away.
Only our big bro is there and by then he too was gone to fishing.
Our house was 'bodu thalhu alhuvafa'.

We called one person after the other, to ask to offer him food just till sis can get back there.
Now things are getting cool and he is staying with my big bro.
He is being treated just like when he was treated when he was a child.

Lets hope he keeps to his good track this time.

I await for another event of things tomorrow.

With lots of ummeeex...
Mage blog ge veri kaleyge:)

'Did He Piss?!'

2009-01-30T18:57:00.006+05:00

Yeah, it really was a good question to ask me last night.
Did I piss myself on the way out?
I went in to that coffee shop neat and clean.

And that question can bug anyone who saw me getting out.
Almost hiding from the public.

Thank god it was near my house.
Or else I do not know what I would do.
I could have bought a bottle of water and poured all over my body.:P

Anyways, it's nothing really.
At least I did not held my buddy yatte accountable for accidentally splashing water over my private parts:P
Even though I felt bit embarrassed all the way till I gpt home.

That embarrassment is nothing compared to the happiness I felt after seeing him that long.
It was like a real reunion after my 12th grade.

Hell, no. I didn't piss.
But it's true I got little bit pissed.

PS. tat aint me there on the above foto.
i jst searched the google and thats the best i could come up with.
But, DID HE ONLY PISS OR ARE THERE MORE TO IT?
obsrve carefully and decide

First Learn How to Advise!

2009-01-29T17:03:00.004+05:00

I have tried and tried.
Came here with a sensational story to scribble.

But now I am all empty.
Too many bugs inside me.
Can't help myself.

Except to let go.
I guess I will have to get back and try again.
Not now.
Maybe not tomorrow.

My blog is becoming too much of a public place.
Now I can't share what is in my heart with my blog any longer.
One solution lies - Stop blogging and take a break.
Yet have not decided on this one.
Time will tell.

Even if that happens my blog will forgive me.

x-ummeexxx-x

NB. The above title is the actual post's title which I tried to write.

My New 'No-Hair' Cut

2009-01-28T21:13:00.005+05:00

I shaved my head today.
I look like a real mad man just out of prison.
I am sorry i do not have a REAL pic of mine to upload.
Pity I am too 'fageeru' to spell out 'camera'. keke

This seems to attract too many people.
The last thing I would want is that.
I mean, I was happy the way I am.
I am better without people staring at me.
Now it is like, I have been ridden of my privacy.
Can not walk on the road without people's stares.
Can not go anywhere without people joking about my 'no-more-hair' situation.
Anyways, that is the last thing I would care about.
I do not give a damn as to what others say or think about me.
Damn right! I will do what I feel is right and when I feel is right.
If any 1 got a problem with that, well, to hell with them.

It is my life.
Only I have the right to choose.
And ONLY I will run it.

Can I Not Rest My Mind Even In My Sleep?

2009-01-28T12:49:00.004+05:00

I came home after 10hours 'out', just after midnight.
After 'thaayyaa jehemu' and ready to hit the bed.
I called my sis on the way home to find out if she was on duty.
I wish I had not called up to hear the news that I would be getting a 'good' scolding.
Obviously I lapsed something and now is the time to face the music.

At home my brother-in-law added some more to it by informing me about the high-court's refusal of our case against the island court.
Now that I mentioned the case, I have to say the judicial system of the Maldives is completely flawed and is being manipulated by the people holding the power.
It's being same in the past and even now it is worse with the current president.
The present counselor for our stupid island deliberately took law into his own hand and abused his power.
My mom and sis's rights on their parents' inheritance were nullified and being handed over to their own brother.. To that brother alone.
The background details about this very case is much more sophisticated to discuss here..
So I would rather skip it.
But I can tell, it really is a travesty to justice.

This takes my determination and devotion strong towards field of law.

Oops! I forgot the title of my post and I am going way off the topic.
Hell Yeah!
I can't rest my mind even in my sleep with these mind-clotting series of real time dramas.
Forget about the music which is about to come. Gotta think about this and think fast.

PS. this post was written at 0230am yesterday night. apparently i was up reading an old story called 'Haathim kaleygefanuge vahaka'. more like alifu laila.

Solar Eclipse

2009-01-26T17:17:00.006+05:00

Today morning I woke up to the worried sounds of my relatives.
Just to find out that there is going to be a solar eclipse today.
According to them, it would be a full solar eclipse.

I asked my mom as to why they are in tension about that.
You know during our studies we were taught about how this eclipses occur and there is no mention in the side-effects or anything that we should be concerned about.
Oh my mine.. She said it was said in the last distributed chronicle that there would be 3 solar eclipses before the doomsday. (Argh, another crap! so superstitious dho?)
She also said once in her youth, this happened and they observed it 'theyyakah fen alhagen'.
Poor my mommy... Evarun beli kanthah now so reachable dho.. just like the above pic.
Worst of all is ebnaa chronicle came from a very trusted source o.. from a very close person of Prophet Mohamed o...

My question is ehnveenama, how come these religious scholars never mention of those?
I do not know. I just do not seem to grasp their theory of solar eclipse.
But I have to admit I dread to see solar eclipse LIVE.
Imagine what if that complete darkness never leave again?
What would happen if that blackness is surrounded by you.
It is dreadful even to think about.
Still I can not help saying for me their theory is ABSURD.

PS. In the eclipse pic I drew those white things. Not that sun does have those when that happens. keke

Fever!

2009-01-25T15:24:00.003+05:00

I am having fever....

I am having a major headache....

I am going through rough time....

I am totally messed up...

Got loads to write...

But nothing seems to come out...

My head is so full of thoughts...

Kudakoh ves ragalhuvee when i used medicine last night!

Not to worry...

It is like rain... It will come and go...

Just have to tolerate a bit.. struggle a little.

It's Dreadful!

2009-01-24T13:56:00.004+05:00

Me, my cousin and mom were having lunch when sis yelled at me.
"I wonder if you people do observe her!", she refered to mom.
"Look how she is struggling to reach her hand over to her mouth? Do not you people have a heart? Is your heart only to your lovely and youthful wives? Are not you people bound to show her to a proper medical officer?"

These words hit me like a blade of a sword.
It really is true. My mom seems to be struggling much more these days. But what can i do? I can only go to hospital when I have been provided with money.

Last week me and mom went to IGMHospital. I even asked the psychiatrist about her shivering and vibration part. Or 'thuru thuru elhun' part. That doc said it could happen after small small strokes, which is totally unnoticeable. She also said it could be worsening especially after my father's death. But 'eyeh miyeh' can only be known after we do CT Scan at ADK (IGMH machine halaak vefa o:P).

Hope nothing bad happens to her. I might be rough on her sometimes. But I do not know what will happen to me if I lose her. I am sure it wont be the same as my father's death.

Anyways, she is so vulnerable these days. But my brothers sometimes seem to forget it. I don't know how to make them aware except saying, 'you will be the same one day or worse and you would act just like that'.

Commitment , My Foot!

2009-01-22T12:47:00.003+05:00

I vow never to get committed to any relationship,
But to play along all the way till the end.
End is expected and it sure will come.. It's only about time.
When the clock hits the target, then no more turning or regretting.
For whatever you did you will be facing it nevertheless.

No more commitment but you should only go with the flow.

EHEN KAN NEGE.... :P

Not Worth a Penny

2009-01-21T11:20:00.003+05:00

I have waited for 'her' to return too long.
I have compromised too much of my time and beliefs over 'her'.
I have re-shaped my life with 'her' flow.
I have allowed myself to think I was wrong all the time and 'she' was right.
I have sacrificed too many things just to make her happy.
I have spent sleepless nights just thinking of 'her'.
I have walked thousand miles just to meet her.

But nothing I did was to any avail.
In the end, my doings were not appreciated.
Not even she called to pronounce the word, 'LEAVING'.
And never even she dared to call up or message and say, 'it's over!'
I was not right in thinking I would get at least that much after this investment.

My investment is NO MORE..
Our relationship is NO MORE..
We ARE no longer Together.

Only my life will go on..

'I Thought My Life is Settled!'

2009-01-20T23:10:00.003+05:00

After higher secondary education, I joined Island Aviation Services as a passenger services assistant. It was the one I chose over three other job offers. It is true I got about 7+ each month. There was nothing else in my life during those days except going to airport and sleeping, getting ready for the next duty. I REALLY did not have any time for friends or family. No holidays, not even Eid or Friday if that matters. Indeed, I was very much committed to my job. I handled my customers with a playful smile and offered friendly services. They were happy. So was I.

Was I wrong in thinking that my life is settled at that point? Was I not right in imagining that my life is very well placed and paced? Was my attitude inappropriate when I chose to settle on the statement, 'I thought my life is settled'. I thought my world is full and I am living to the maximum. I mean, what the heck, I got a real one-time-job which I loved. I could hang on to it for the rest of my life.

But I turned to be wrong. My life was not settled, after all. I thought of the things I am missing only when my officemate, Ihusann attacked me emotionally and hit me with the reality. By the time he finished his theory of my life I was feeling really stupid and then only I realised what a pit I had made out of my life. Thank you Ihu.

My determination about my life and future weakened. My conviction staggered. Thus I chose to be out and grabbed the first opportunity at FSL, MCHE. And I really do not regret it. At least not yet. Now I have got a profession to work on. A dream to pursue on. A hard and challenging one.

Aargh! If only I chose something short!

How My Step-Mom Died!

2009-01-19T15:20:00.003+05:00

You might be surprised when you read the title of the post!
Have I got a step-mom? Then how come I never told you?
You might be wondering to and fro about this.

Actually I had a step mom. But she can be refered to as my late-step-mom.
I never had a chance to see her as my dad only remarried when she died.
It left him with two children from that marriage - my two step-bros.
One of them do not regard us or our family as part of him.
Another one is married to my very close aunt and we get along real fine.
There is no talk about him being step or non-step.
He is the supreme in our little family.

I guess that will be enough of an introduction.
When this bro is asked to go to an uninhabited island, he always tell he is willing to go anywhere except to the one near our island known as Wodamulaa.
He even admits that he dread to remain in the island alone.

According to him, that island is the cause of his mom's death.
He still remembers that particular day when they were in that island and she was alone in the woods while all others were staying in the beach area.
When she came out she was eating something. She was said to say that she was eating this fish with this something with this someone.

But when the name of the person was mentioned who fed her, it was well clear that person never even went to that island on that day.
And to confirm this, after some time she started to vomit and she died...

I do not want to believe in ghosts. But stories like this can not be untrue, unless you come up with a better theory..

So Long!

2009-01-17T19:52:00.004+05:00

Sender: +960 778 00 00
Date n time: 17/01/2009 00:45:10
Message:
Your account balance is RF. 4.84. Please recharge to continue using the service.

It has been a very long time since this stupid message dropped in my inbox
More than 3 years I have been hiding from this horrible message of Dhiraagu.
This was one of the reason I got hold of a postpaid in the first place.
I never expected this one. Not now.

In fact, i thought I have learnt to live without this, until tonight.
I guess this message is just another way to remind me that I am using a prepaid once again, after so long.

I remember I used to suggest people to go for a postpaid every time they are out of credit and unable to make a call even if out of desperation.
Well, I am in the same boat now.
They and myself are in the same situation.

Believe me postpaid sucks... and...
Prepaid... STINKS!

Where Is The Label?

2009-01-16T20:44:00.004+05:00

After lot of tots, tonight am deciding to put labels to my posts.
It happened to be a complain to some. I guess it wont be now.

There are some other reasons to it, of course.
I believe some in my family has got loads of tragic stories to tell.
In fact, I have been meaning to share those with my blog and you.
There are both hysterical and mysterious stories.

And the other reason is i am just thinking about putting my diary notes in here.
Time is of essence. No one knows what will happen to me or when it would happen.
I thought it would be a gr8 idea to reveal some or all of my dark secrets and worst fears.

Who knows? Keep looking..! I might publish my will in here or it could be my suicide note.. keke.. But that will happen only when and if i go totally insane.!

Sad!

2009-01-15T20:32:00.003+05:00

um... um...
unlike other times i could not write my daily notes last night.
when i got home it was late night and all were asleep.
there was no place for me to sleep :(
worst of all, i could not even get hold of my notepad.
i just sat watching Raju Chaachaa on star gold, feeling both drawn and tired.

Duno, i heard my shweet shafu crying and the sound of my sis.
i somehow fell asleep on the chair with the remote.
shafu was vomiting like no other and it was all over the place.
even a mere sniff of it would make you vomit too.
whole the night i had to go through that. Me, Sis and Mom.
and ofcourse, Shafoo.. i was surprised that no other awoke even to the sound of it.
they were dead asleep even when she was taken to hospital in the rain at 3 o'clock in the mornin. {Sleepy heads}

hm.. as for today, i have tried myself to be very busy so that i can at least forget somethings i am going through.
how i wish i can forget all those moments spend with 'her'...
i still can't understand why she did this or is doing this to me?

Broken Heart

2009-01-14T16:41:00.003+05:00

This was written on yesterday night before i went to bed.. But i could not publish it since i have no internet connection at home now..

Today has been so sick and full of tragedy except for somethings.
I wish i could skip 13.01.09 and totally erase the date.

I am so blank tonight.
So many things are gathered in my head right now.
Just do not know what to ink out.

I changed my number tonight.
It starts with 7800..
Yeah, sola your right!
Now dhiraagu has being issuing those. Salhi dho?
And it's not a post paid but happens to be a prepaid account.
I figured that i do not need to carry a post paid anymore, now that i do not have special someone to call to.
Still then I do not feel happy in changing to a prepaid after using a line for too many years.

Everything is ruined.
I need to modify all the codes of my life.
I am forced to start all over starting with a zero.

Right now i am not feeling very great about babies, families and even relationships.
So i would skip the part about Fainan's (kinda my ex-office mate..)new-borne except to say the baby boy was lovely.
I do not think it is right to blame a baby or some other one who did not do a thing to me, just because of my mood or what just happened to me.
It would not be morally good and it won't be fair.

After that me and my former office mates, Kandi, Hulk and Twizzer went to Watergate.
I enjoyed a lavazza black since i had no apetite to eat.
I should say it felt good after seeing them, even after my-bad happenings.
We chit-chatted on different scenarios and our talk point took different courses.

Finally i am at home writing to my dear blog another long post.

PS. I had skipped the most serious part because i do not want 'her' memory to hurt me... But I can't help saying i really feel like being betrayed.. and this feeling stinks.

Sorry I forgot this part.. just for the record..
My eldest bro called me after i messaged to update my new number, and demanded to know why i am doing this.
I had no reply except saying it's for some days..
I hung up and both of us know there is more to it.
He was concerned for me, and his suspicion is right.
Something is NOT RIGHT!

But i can't confide in him.. I am sorry bro.
I do not want to talk about a relationship which just went into pieces.
No hard feelings.

My Mistake

2009-01-13T12:34:00.002+05:00

I am sorry i have not gone to hospital after my sister-in-law's delivery.

I feel really sorry for not visiting there even for a mere moment.

I am terribly sorry for thinking that everyday would be their final day at hospital..

Now that i know am wrong and how bad the new-borne is doing,
I feel empty inside and i am stricken with grief over the things i have not done.

I am sorry

I am sorry.

I wish i'd have realized this a little earlier.

How I wish i can undo things!
How I wish i can redo it all once again!
How I wish to spend sometimes with the little baby girl!

I am full of regrets and i repent MY MISTAKE..
After all, it's my MISTAKE..

PS. i did visit the hospital yesterday.. twice..
this article was written day before yesterday.
i m not that inhumane for god's sake.

Misunderstandings

2009-01-13T12:10:00.003+05:00

Have you ever come across times when you have been totally misunderstood?
Have you been in a situation when the second party interprets what you said in a complete different way?
Have you ever felt frustration over this and feels as if this would not happen?

Well, I have been...
Believe it or not, in our short span of life we come across this kind of circumstances on almost daily basis.

This happens in every family.
This could and does occur in every relationship.
Be it Mother - Father or among parents and children.

Sometimes we have to jeopardize what we believe in over this...
Sometimes we have to let go of our vantage point and chose some other way even if it not be the right path of things.

Right now i am in one of these stands.
Status and incidents are bound to influence people and their think point.
This stray people away from the track.

Sometimes these things are inevitable,
Sometimes it can be ignored or skipped
Sometimes it can be regarded as 'just another phase of life'.
But both the parties would have to fully understand the knowledge about other's character.

Then only it will be the perfect family,
Then only it will be the perfect relationship,
Then only it will be the perfect friends.

But believe me, this is not easy,
And this is really really RARE.

Obama Wont Be Any Good!

2009-01-11T16:46:00.005+05:00

Why I Fired My Secretary Today!

2009-01-10T12:12:00.003+05:00

i jst read this from scribd.com and thot of sharing with u ppl.
hope u wud enjoy this as much as i did or a bit more.. and i added a foto..
here is the reference..
http://www.scribd.com/doc/28415/Why-I-fired-my-secretary-today

Last week was my birthday and I didn't feel very well waking up that morning. I
went downstairs for breakfast hoping my wife would be pleasant and say, "Happy
birthday!", and possibly have a present for me.

As it turned out, she barely said good morning, let alone "Happy birthday".
I thought... well, that's marriage for you, but the kids will remember. My kids
ate breakfast and didn't say a word.

So when I left for the office, I was feeling pretty low and somewhat despondent.
As I walked into my office, my secretary, Jane said, "Good morning boss, happy
birthday!" It felt a little better that at least someone had remembered.

I worked until one o'clock and then Jane knocked on my door and said, "You know,
it's such a beautiful day outside, and it's your birthday, let's go out to lunch,
just you and me".

I said, "Thanks Jane, that's the greatest thing I've heard all day. Let's go!"
We went to lunch. But we didn't go where we normally would go. We dined instead at
a little place with a private table. We had two martinis each and I enjoyed the
meal tremendously.

On the way back to the office, Jane said, "You know, it's such a beautiful day...
We don't need to go back to the office, do we?"

I responded, "I guess not. What do you have in mind?"

She said, "Let's go to my apartment".

After arriving at her apartment Jane turned to me and said, "Boss, if you don't
mind, I'm going to step into the bedroom for a moment. I'll be right back".

"OK", I nervously replied.

She went into the bedroom and, after a couple of minutes, she came out carrying a
huge birthday cake... followed by my wife, kids, and dozens of my friends and coworkers,
all singing "Happy Birthday".

And I just sat there...

On the couch...

Naked...

Gf/Bf vs Friends

2009-01-08T09:59:00.002+05:00

Many times i think about this,
What really is the difference btwn Gf/Bf and Friends?
Are there any difference at all?
Just now i have been answrd by ma shwt pumpkin..

According to her,
Friends are people who call randomly to check on another one,
to call dhethere dherethin to know abt him/her and to share some
fun...

And Gf/Bf's would call a little bit ginain than friends..
And there is a lot to it, and it gets complicated,
when we put gf/bf vs husband/wife..
Oh.. god.. hama asl ves there are a lot of differences dho..

all thanks to Laa for leting me know abt those,
before i get too overwhelmed with my dream land.
thanks for letting me kno before i lost u completely..
i m soree that ma think point was wrong,
i hate to admit, bt ur attitude was damn rite abt this and i wil stick to it.

Dreams Being Shattered

2009-01-07T12:22:00.003+05:00

I spend last nite thinkin abt wat will happen to me after the course
I wish that friend of mine had not given that bad news.
At least it could have given me a good nights sleep.
Anyways now the damage is being done and i have to think of a Plan B..
A Plan B which i never got prepared for and never expected..
Pity i forgot the saying, EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED!

It was told that both AG's and PG's office has no vacant posts available.
And its very very unlikely to get one, if the person not be the cram of the course.
I was depressed when he told me that the last batch of our course is still roamin around to and fro AG and PG.
But i beleev there is a mere chance of being accepted..
But it has to be SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST!

My dreams are being shattered.. My life has been scrambled.
All plans need extra remodelling, have to start all over again.
I was devastated to let go of the dream,
which ultimately will cover up the mess of debt i created,
which ultimately bring happiness to my house and wealth to my family,
which ultimately could happen to be the medical care for my mom,
which ultimately WOULD BRING ME AND LAA CLOSER AND TOGETHER.

Lets C about my choices,IF that calamity befell on me.

Plan A..
I can join police or some other place with an attractive salary,
and try turning to my dreams sloly

Plan B..
I can go for LLB on my own.. the worst part..

Plan C..the worst of worst
I can leave LAW completely and get back on some stupid job and go about my stupid life.

Damn.. I m Stuck between a rock and the stormy sea..
'''''sighs''''

One Hour!

2009-01-03T21:00:00.003+05:00

Wow.. I m speechless..
Just now i spend both the most wonderful
And most painful one hour of my life...

Wonderful for the things me n laa did together..
Happy for the way we utilized our limited time.
Delighted to see her for the last time..
For another dreadful long one year..
Cheerful abt the way we handled things,
Both intrinsic and extrinsic..
Glad the way she coordinated our moves..
So that we wud have no further regrets..
Ummmmmmmaaaahh

Painful for the most parrtt..
For we wont be seeing each other for another year o more..
Sad about the long distance calls,
Depressd abt lookin at the fotographs for the rest of the year..
For the most part.. its jst unhappy..

Thanks darling shweet heart...
Thanks for the looks and that gleeful stares..
And meaningfull whispers and comforting touchs.
Its jst AWESOME..
Thanks for the hot ummeeeeeeezz...
Thanks for the last word u said..

Actually i gave u the novel which i have not read yet..
For the other one is legal-fiction and that wud bore u down..
Bt the one i gav u is of essence and women related..
With no comparison.. the gr8 BARBARA TAYLOR.. hope u enjoy..
I gave it because i knew u wud be bored on the way... in the boat..
Dont woree.. i have read that story last year in the library..
I gave u the PIN because i knew deep in ur heart u wud lov it..
Enjoy every moment..
Lurve u..

Siyaasee Benumah Discos Banned

2009-01-01T10:59:00.002+05:00

I feel both pity and bit proud to write about this discos getting banned at the eleventh hour.

Pity on the ways and great lengths people went about organising this discos in Male' so openly to celebrate the new year's eve for the year 2009.

Thru out the day i have been hearing and seeing abt the ads on it. Even some took this as an oppourtunity to critisize and compare the current government and former Maumoon-led government. I felt really awkward about the comments i heard on the subject, like maumooon huri iru mihaa vareh nuveye and some bullshits..

Proud dat Islamic affairs ministry undertook the stresing issue and was responsible enuf to stop it even at the last minute. We as 100% islami-claiming country shud not have those controversial events. I leave that to them, not my part of the argument.
What i know is islam is best in its default. It need no editing, refrshing or modernising. Be it thru discos o dJs.

But then i wonder, why could not the ministry come up with a solution to this bit earlier? Why cud not they tend to this sooner if they want to ban this with islam as a motive? Mayb these are stupid questions no one wud answr. But at least the organisers of this would have been saved from troubles and huge expenses. At least the people who favored this and wanted to be there need not face disappointment after all those preparations. I bet more than half the people bought new costumes according to the theme! What a rejection! Poor people.

Could it be that minister's decision is based on some power hungry political agenda? I really do not want to think so. But unfortunately this time it happens to be true. I mean if they were looking for events which obstruct islam in anyway, why cud not they take some action before everythin got this finalised? They were not aware of it? I doubt it.

There is this thing i did not understand abt the event, though. Some organisers at TVM's Mariyadhuge show was said to say for women entrance is for free and for men they charage a sum of RF 300.00. How absurd is this? I cannot understand this odd way of charging. Can we regard this as discrimination of some sort? Maybe i didnt understand their concept. But still i cant help wondering why do the women get free entrance .. Wel, Let me think..

um.. Because they have got tits??? keke

A Trio Celebrating New Year

2009-01-01T10:46:00.002+05:00

tonight we celebrated the new year on our own way,
me, edm, and edy..
missd the lovable company of sola..
it could have been a real reunion

many times i wonder,
so many frnds has come and gone,
but these three are always there,
so many years passd, bt we are stil together.

we might have misd hours, days and even weeks without calling eech other,
but deep in our heart we neva forget each other.

we went to some Indian restaurant to have a hearty dinner,
and filld our stomachs till its full

then there goes a long walk///
all the way chit chatting abt edy's love life and
his 'bureege this thing'

oops, m i being too gay? ok.. strike that 'buri' part

then there goes our coffee @ dolphin..
ekkala eddy faharak hakuru pckt eh angayah malhaali..

people change so much over time dho..
for instance coffee ga indhaa dhimavi shaaneeez
i remember him bas ahaa kujja on 10th grade.. or was it 9th? dnt kno.
now he is more like a yo guy.. a terrific change i shud say..

heard a new thing abt sola..
bitu govagen gos thalhaali bondeega udhoali halak kollee yo...
seriusly no offense... dats wat i heard, more o less

P.s. rite nw solaa huree bitakaa behigen greece ah aruvaafa..
happy new year man..

Two Double Xero Nine

2009-01-01T10:43:00.000+05:00

It’s the beginning of a new year
A totally new start with fresh breath
Just the beginning of 2009

In which lies new hope,
New agendas for some, and new items for others,
New friends and new opportunities
In which one can act upon,

A chance for one to repent
A time for one to forget and heal past regrets
A place for one to start anew

New Year’s Reality Check

2008-12-31T21:04:00.003+05:00

Another year, another chance
To start our lives anew;
This time we’ll leap old barriers
To have a real breakthrough.

We’ll take one little step
And then we’ll take one more,
Our unlimited potential
We’ll totally explore.

We’ll show off all our talents
Everyone will be inspired;
(Hmm…while I’m writing this,
I’m getting very tired.)

We’ll give up all bad habits;
We’ll read and learn a lot,
All our goals will be accomplished,
Sigh...or maybe not.

Oh well, Happy New Year anyway!

By Joanna Fuchs

Ummah

2008-12-31T20:48:00.002+05:00

what to say.. i m overjoyed with happines..
as if i m blessd with glad tidings of new year..

i met laalaa tonite after a big interval,
but damn, the moment went so fast,
we didnt even realise it.
but then 'kithanme vareh viyas hiy nufurene nu.'

i really appreciate her getting out that difficultly,
it really meant a lot to me..

finally i was able to give her ma gift..
she was happy, and that was wat i wanted..
dont woree edm, it fits to one of her finger...
and beleev me its not the thumb.
it lookd cute on her adorable hand,
as if meant to be there

happy new year laalaa
ummmxxxxxxxxxxxx

Topic Less

2008-12-30T11:59:00.002+05:00

I have done a little bit of reading on one factor which i think affects our everyday life. ie. the perception factor. Simply the forming of one's perception about the subject. Whether it be about a relationship or merely about gf/bf.

For instance my girl friend might not be calling for a few days or even sending a sms. Worse still, not even returning my calls. There is the despicable situation. Both terrific and troublesome. There are two approaches which we can tackle this one.

1. I can assume she is angry with me for some 'god-knows-only' reason, or do not even want to speak to me, she does not miss me and blah blah..

2. I can be the most understanding guy and think of it in a positive way like.. 'she is busy or something is up and we can talk about when she is ready.' I could give her some time to lessen her worries slightly.

Whatever option we choose, we end up forming a perception accordingly. For example if I chose 1, i may even think of so many bad things about her unnecessarily and unintentionally. I may at one point may be forced to suspect her. Damn!

This is where I am concerned. This is when so called perception forms which ultimately start to govern all our actions and controls our thoughts. At one point our behavior towards that particular something or someone takes a different track.

In a nutshell, what I am saying is just because everything does not happen as your expectancy theory, it does not mean that you should think of it in the most negative way possible. Your attitude determines everything.

Just off the record, one of my friends told me about her this sickness. She had been a sick one all her life. Everyone regarded her as retarded. And she started to believe their spoon-fed theory which put her life into misery. Then something happened. She changed her way of thinking, her perception towards that sickness was altered. I am proud to say that she is doing real great even though one time the doctors gave zero hopes on her life.

So here I am. I think the perception I took on Laa's ignorance was not appropriate. I really have messed it up. I wish she would give me the chance to edit and to relive it. I did make too many blunders and now i regret it all. From tonight onwards, I will change my approach and even stop thinking she is ignoring me. She is just being busy and lets give her some time to cool off.

My Resolutions for The Year 2009

2008-12-29T10:35:00.003+05:00

@Studies
i will beat everyone in ma course and get the first place
i will join LLB on my employers sponsor

@Family
i will do everything to help my family
i will help mom and all
i will help ghaalee n nafaa with their works

@Work
i will join one of work place. either AG or PG
i will impress everyone there and do my best

@Love
i will love laa more n more
But i will give her space to move on.
i will try not calling her so many times.
i will not be a romantic.

@Friends
they will be there,
i will tend to their needs

@Religion
i will pray at least 3 every day
i will finish quran every monthly basis

dear lord, help me attain these.
insha allah

New Year Resolutions

2008-12-29T10:24:00.004+05:00

hm.. anekka ves new year fettenee dho
have u come up with ur resolutions yet?
o jst delayin the process for some later time?
i ges there is no point in delayin. make one..
and it beter be soon...

bt chose things u can keep up with.
make things which u can act upon
rather than deceiving ur self n self confidence
think of things which is really needed
and omit things which u may do without

I Really Miss You

2008-12-28T21:20:00.002+05:00

laa, i dont kno wat to say..
i m missing u so much..
i tot of putting a bear in this..
for u love bear the most..
every time i c this bear..
i love u more and more..
maybe i m jst stupid..
bt i love u unlimited.
for u tot me hw to love..
and the happiness within..

Oh Shit!

2008-12-28T21:10:00.001+05:00

another dreamy day turnin out.
another uselez nite being called a nite.

hey congra to me..
i got Distinction in GPL.
thank god..

i paid 8,000.00 of faisal be ge rufiya..
stil a lot more to go.

wel wel/ dhenme nidhafa aeema nw ma head is being hit..
laa ah ves vaa varu dho.. keekranee...
naseeb dhera me..

um.. mire ves inthixar kranee hama..
she messgd me.. not sm shweet one..
more like out of obligation..

anyways.. evaru ves me ah ok ey..
she said adhi negeyo mire ves meet nuvane kameh..
she gives me hope every nite..
bt konme niteh nime iru it turns to despair

Desperation

2008-12-27T22:53:00.004+05:00

it really is getting desperate..
nothin left to say..
lets forget this all..
here i m..
the only thing left is me n ma tears
the very same another nite..
gnt to ma blog

Today Stinks

2008-12-27T21:19:00.000+05:00

for a start, today is usual..
jst the usual things happening al da way

i cudn make to da bday party.
both twinkle n her mom is sick.
i apologizd, and was acceptd.
nothin unusual abt that..no regrets

um.. the rest i wud rather skip.

is she playin with me?
then lets play it her way.

is she lurving me?
then lets love her way

is she ignorin me?
then y wudnt i ignore her double?

does she want to be with me and she is bit busy these days?
then hel i wud want her more than anyone els,
and i wud be waiting givin her some space to move on..

this is da last call i m making
note the time..
21:24.. December 27..

i love her more n more.. she really is testing ma limits to patience..
gal u better stop it rite here.. o i wud burn in ma own patience.

Being Happy is So Foreign

2008-12-26T18:12:00.000+05:00

here i am again.. jst now got a call from my buddy soft.
gave little bit of happy news. it really is happy if they
are goin to increase ag's salary to around 18.
dat wil be real fun.. especially wen i m in this much financial debt.
we tokd abt the last 'dhas venimumuge' ceremony.
he said that thubulhi laafa hunna man got the first place in ACSL.
whoo knows, lik he said i mite be first this time.

wel wel .. stil no news of laa.. i am getting tired of staying here..
i shud go to edm's house kan nege. aha.. there i remembr.. edm ge kreege
x invited me and ma twinkle to bday.. i dont kno if i can make it..
lets c wat magic i can make with the magic invitation wand.

Dear God!

2008-12-26T16:39:00.000+05:00

Dear god.. i kno ur there.
ur da most merciful, most gracius..
i truly believe it to da fullest
for u give me energy to rite and to b.
without u i wud be a big nothing.
i wud have no where to go..
lord, u kno the circumstances, u kno it al
u know wats deep etchd in my mind and all
ur the best tenderer.. best nurturer.
plz god.. hear ma supplications..
even though i didnt perform every prayer,
i kno ur there, ur kind..
plz plz god bestow me energy to go thru al this..
kindly give me.. for ur kind..
ur the only one who knows everythin..
u kno faisal be wil be asking for those money..
and u are the only one hoo can help me recover those.
i m one of ur creation, out of so many..
i have faith.. because i believe in Allah..
plz straigten the loopholes in my relationship/
make us committed..
i pray to u.. dear almitee.. asthaghu firullah..

'Kameh Nuve!'

2008-12-26T16:32:00.000+05:00

what to write here?
i really dont kno..
my mind is so filled up
dont know if it is related to last nite
she is not offering me anythin
except 'kameh nuve'
kameh nuvanama wud she act lik dat?
durin da past year wenever,
my mind conjurs somthin like this,
it turned to be something.. not a nothin.
plus there are some factors here.
she didn call me..
i dont kno maybe i shudnt write anthn at all here..
mayb that wil help..
damn.. she is givine me such a hard time.
i havent touched a meal or merely drank a thing since last nite.
not that i want to die of hunger o somethin..
i jst cud not.
i dont kno.. all other times things didnt go this far..

Disappointed!

2008-12-24T21:28:00.000+05:00

we went for a long walk today evenin..
we were not alone..
even though it is no so,
we somehow were happy..
mayb to see each other..
popcorn we enjoyed..
we continued on our own path..
me to mosque followd by office..
she to her home.
after a long time,
my missing of her intensified.
so i called.. to hear that lovly voice..
to give me enuf strenght to go thru da nite
for i get energised by her toks..
damn.. 'madhan miulhenee rashah dhaan'
shit.. shit..
shit
shit..
i jst cudnt take it..
its not fair..
bt then da world is not fair at al.:(:(
''weeps''
''''weeeps'''
wherever u go.. i wil lv u foreva.

Day 2 At Her Majesty's Palace

2008-12-24T21:17:00.000+05:00

at last my call came out of the blues
the one i been anticipating since 8
i rushed to my queen, more like an athlete,
running for the gold medal with full stamina
i walked restlessly varah baarah towards artificial
and there i met my 'dhon hiyala'
for the second time in more than a year.
much beautiful than yester-night.
blossoming like a shweet flower in tropics
pity i cudnt take a flower with me
to dampen her majesty's beautiful lips
we shared a moment which lasted till 2330
got a lil cozy place as if bookd for her prescence
shared the joy and the beauty of the breezing nite.
but then we turned home and queen was unable to enter..
queen got stuck out at her palace..
there she was 'milaafa' like a leaf..
turning around here and there in worry..
one gnt ummeez and i was gone.. lurv ya

We Met Finally

2008-12-24T21:06:00.000+05:00

For the first time i met Laa Laa.
And damn, she gave me hell lota surprises.
She came here without even telling me.
I neva expected my feelings to be true,
and for her to be in here..
cause it is so so so unexpected and out of the blues.
she succeeded in giving me a surprise,
by lying ofcourse, which was easily forgiven,
by her mere prescence.
as her word, she was wearing 'buruga'.
i was happy cause i knew for some part,
she wore it because i told her to.
the most happiest thing was i got to spend so many,
well not so many, times with her ALONE>
but which was not enuf and neva wil be.,
its like a rare jewel getting into ur hand
and u know that it wil be taken from u soon..
lets hope she wil be here for some more time..
we did memorable things, which i wil cherish every moment of.
dont kno abt her, bt i expect it to be the same.. i m sure she wil too.
first it was bit akward... and its so dreamy..
bt the events followed proved it as true and reality.
then the atmosphere turned to rom.. and rom we did..
by means of a walk.. drink.. hugs.. and one small kiss..:)
love u lots n lots pumpkins

dated 22/12/2008 2043

A Lil Bit of Dedication

2008-12-24T21:03:00.000+05:00

In wonderful moments,
I think of u.
In sorrow and depair,
I turn to u.
In despicable situations,
I call for u.
In every moment,
I take solace from u.

Just A Mere Thought

2008-12-24T20:59:00.000+05:00

Clouds are standing by,
Giving way to my rotten feelings,
Watching my every move,
Wondering if i would do right,
Unlike other times when i failed.
My determination is strong,
Powered by god-given gift of empowerment.
The so familiar fear is out of the way,
stepping into a road with no obstacles on the way.

December 11, 2008 0357

2008-12-24T20:58:00.001+05:00

Since it is my birthday I tried to be awake hoping to hear my love wish me a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
Whose wish is the only wish I was looking forward to and in need of,
Believe it or not, I have had to struggle to keep awake. I tried watching a movie for that sake.
Actually I watched 3. Anyways I could not succeed in not sleeping. I lost the battle and I woke up around 0040. My first instinct was to search for the phone.
There it was, four messages and 5 missed calls.
NO PRESENTS. NO CELEBRATIONS, NO TREATS, nothing at all. Only wishes.
Another lame birthday, I guess.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..

Such A Long Wait

2008-12-23T22:16:00.003+05:00

its true for some part i came to office on official busines,
but the other half of it was to meet my shweet pumkin.
i hav been waiting and waiting..
i waited for her to get outta shwer..
a wait like no other, a wait of 1 or more hour..
and then she gives me new hope.. i get asked to wait for her call
i wait and wait, as always.. with the new flame..
my post is ending.. so is the time..
its almost 22:30..
my hopes are getting dimmer..
will she turn up? or will she care to call and let me kno she cant make it?
o worse.. will she forget that i am waiting for her..
in this despicable place with nothin els to do..
except wait.. such a long wait..

Thank God!

2008-12-16T15:14:00.002+05:00

first of all, praises are to be god, the lord of all the world,
for the blessings which were offered to me,
without my realisation and to my knowledge,
showing me a miracle, making me 'glitter' in appreciation
good lord, give me the company as always,
forget not me, for if You did none can help me,
but i will be helpless and deserving no place other than the pit.
dear lord, show me onto the right path,
bestow me the knowledge and 'hilm' which i always ask from You.